Am I seriously about to leave? A journey into the unknown

What a question. What a feeling. What a journey.  Some moments got fixed in print of paper. Some are still in my heart. One I am about to share. 

From the middle of the journey. My journey from my home at the lake to the unknowness of whats laying infront of me ... there in the dessert of the bright red continent. Well there was less hope and lots of dissapointment waiting for me. But also a lot of insights and beautiful moments. It was a time like so many. A time I don't wanna miss. A time that shaped me as so many times on my journey for now. 

But for now ... we are back on Sumatra and my first airport, where the plane was about to lift me off into a new stage of story telling. Here I was ... and my ink on paper transforms the story into the third person ... let's stick with Standing at the center. Trying to figure out what was going on. She got send back to the ticket center Her flight was delayed. Her ongoing flight in danger .A long road to heaven ... Fuck that shit! Flying is bullshit. Never ever flying again, she wanted to commit. But she knew, that wasn't possible. But the forces knew, how to make the journey difficult for her. Taking her energy. Taking her will. Why was she so important? She felt int bits the answer, this sensing, this knowing, without being able to grasp anything. The forces were fighting. Are fighting. Still. Constantly. The gods are fighting for their own good. 'Wish me luck, universe! Birng me to heaven. I go the road, like I got asked for. Here I am.'

She closed her eyes. She opened them - again. Her guardance wasn't here in the halls of the airport. She was already sitting in the plane to Australia. She got the flight. Now she just needed to get the ongoing flight as well. She saw herself arriving, stepping out of the plane .. .after almost two years, touching Australian ground, breathing in the hot air. Feeling the closness of her goodbye. She tried to breath. It was hard. Her throught was itching. She tried to swallow. Not able to.  Live turned into a total silnence araound her. Everthing turned mute. 

The bizzling and buzzling airport was alive, but not for her. She wasn't there anymore.